“When things don't go the way you want them to,
sometimes instead of feeling disappointment or heartache,
you just become numb.” 
― April Mae Monterrosa

The day I lost my husband, I cried myself to everything.
I cried and cried and cried until . . . . .

Last month I found this plan in my bible app titled “gradual goodbye” by Welby O’Brien. When I read it, it took me back to what our family had to fight through up to last year. The lost of our dad has made this part, ”the gradual goodbye”, felt insignificant, hidden, and buried deep under; but in fact it is not, the messy middle between the start and the end of something is where . . . . .

In my earlier years as a Christian, when a challenge hit my life, I find myself saying, “Lord, why is this happening to me?” However, as years progressed and I learned to behold more of Jesus through His Word, I find myself saying, “Lord, this battle belongs to You”, whenever a crisis or a challenge face me.


David wrote, “Even when I walk&n . . . . .

Melissa Breyer, an author for “Healthy Living”, shares what happens physiologically and psychologically when a person laughs. Here are just a few things it does:

• Lowers blood pressure
• Increases vascular blood flow and oxygenation of the blood

Dry seasons are the worst.

Dry seasons are those times when you feel like God is far away. Like He is just not within your reach. It’s like being in a relationship with someone, in good terms, but not knowing how get the call through. Like you miss them so much, but you just don't know how to get to them anymore. Every means of contact seem to fail. All messages unread, ph . . . . .